The bad part of any higher education is as you learn more knowledge and become more skilled, so does your expectations and the chances of that competitive job. You really narrow your scope of getting hired in all common workplaces that most people tend to work at because now since you are highly skilled you deserve a better, demanding and challenging job. Money is secondary. What happens to a MS candidate or for that matter a PHD candidate when he finishes up with his education? How his expectations go high about everything?
I spend hours watching other photographer's snaps on flickr. I get very nostalgic when I watch some snaps in and around Pune area where I used to do my photography. Those snaps take me into a altogether different dream world. I envy the people who go in groups (photographers@pune) the local club and its members for the fantastic relations and friendships they form. I envy those people who go for treks and make me remind how I used to do all that stuff once. This often brings me back to the pivotal question of what I intend to do after MS is complete? Do I want to settle for a job here and live a technical life? Get financial stability because $$ -> Rs is so high. Or I should go back to India, do a job and enjoy the things which I always enjoyed. The most important question that occurs to me is, work. Will I get the good work for which I always craved for in my hometown Pune? I do not want to move anywhere else like Banglore or any other place. If I settle down it will be in Pune. I get confused. I can not think of any answer. Those snaps of Pune, the lush greenery attract me towards it. I remind myself of the work I used to do and how I was bored of that. I try finding out constantly the new opportunities and good job prospects in Pune so that I can have something in hand. I desperately look for some alternatives. Because I know I belong there. That is where I want to always.
The confusion continues. I keep on getting nostalgic about small,small things. The innocent children, the famous roads, the famous forts, the famous markets. Fortunately I have almost a personal collection of around 25,000 snaps from the date I started photography and all those bind me, remind me and keep my roots firm. They make me nostalgic, make me cry, suddenly many questions which many people sitting in India does not think start popping in your head. Those snaps make me emotional. They always pose the tough question which any Indian in US always gets into at some point of time in his life. I have some time in hand still. I wish some day I would get out of this whole confusion and find some one who would compel me to take a forced hard decision. I hope I would return back very soon..
I hope that day arrive soon....Pune, please get yourself better product companies. I am dying to return :( I believe everybody should come to a foreign land atleast once, just to get the feeling of the missing things and missing relations that you crave for. I believe then only one understands the importance of relations, your own loved people and many things which we always take for granted. Its good to suffer, since out of those sufferings come a better person, who values things around him more than he used to before. I miss you all...
Monday, October 13, 2008
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Career is the most important part of your life.So your job comes first then your likings and all.You belong to India is true and you get nostalgic is also normal. The thing is how much of satisfaction you get after doing each work.Obviously the things you are studying will give you more joy and happiness.Trekking and photography etc are your hobbies and just let them be your hobbies don't interrupt them with your career.As end of the day hobbies and extra activities gives you satisfaction for a moment or few days,they are meant to just refresh your mind and soul.If you miss people then try being social and frankly people are important but they never serve you for entire life,it is you who always serve and do things for yourself.Try and interact with your parents as much as you can,because even if you feel they are not capable of understanding things, they can still give you instant solutions.Don't keep on thinking about minor things.So I hope this helps you out in some way and making a decision.Hoping to see your confusion cleared post soon.
hmmm. Yes Anonymous. I understand what you are saying. These are just the moments which I happen to go through. I understand that trekking and photography are just hobbies and they will stay as hobbies always. I understand that and have realized that they have their own place and my job is the most important thing for me. But sometimes you tend to get emotional and nostalgic. Job decision depends on lot many other factors and not necessarily these. Thanks for your invaluable guidance always.
-Mrunal
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