The mind game....

How many different levels of exposure do we need?

When I was in India, at some point of time under the so called immature adult arrogance which every young guy has when he gets a new job, when he gets good money, starts understanding practicality, I always thought, I knew everything. I always thought I had all the exposure. That is the typical way a person thinks when he is unexposed to lot of situation yet he thinks he is super-exposed. It was not exactly arrogance but a certain kind of overconfidence, which one gets at different stages of ones life.

How much exposure is enough to make one understand different things. A villager in a village who carries lot of traditional views, who is amused by different novelties of a city life, has a certain different level of degree of lack of exposure. An uneducated person carries whole different set of level of non-exposure. Women, girls carry different mindset and different notion and have different ways of thinking. How does a soldier thinks when he is in battlefield, what kind of mental toughness he carries? How must have all the Nazi people who killed Jews in concentration camps must have thought? Killing people in millions like killing animals, what kind of mind do these men posses? What about terrorists who slaughter innocent people? How much exposure do these people have? Education need not make a person wise. Exposure need make one understand everything. How Each person thinks differently, gets exposed to different situations.

All those ruthless people, who kill people without slightest blot on their conscience have different mindset. All people who are emotional and who are sensitive to sadness and unhappiness carry different level of exposure. There is so much sadness in this world. Every person without exposure who does not understand many things the way they happen, become slave of some orthodox thoughts at some point of time and behaves in a certain fashion. Every body tries to justify things the way he/she does it. At some point of time even a most selfless person gets some selfishness. This is a human nature. People say I care for you, but I do not know how to show my care towards you. People feel by achieving something they will become happy, but the happiness keeps on eluding them from time to time. People try finding happiness in different things. People find some motive to live the life and move ahead.

Loneliness is a state of mind. One can be lonely even in presence of thousands of people, one can be lonely even in the presence of a dear one. People enjoy, or atleast they show that they enjoy. Every family tries to portray the best to the outside world. What lies inside, is a matter of concern and is known only to those individuals. Every body wears a mask of happiness and feeling of enjoyment to portray to others. Does not caring for others and enjoying and claiming I am happy, makes one happy? Does caring for others and getting sad because of the realization that there are certain things which you can not change and keeping oneself unhappy, a good thing? Lot of exposure makes one question lot of things in one's mind. It raises lot of controversies. silencing it by ignoring it or getting unhappy because of the other person is not understanding ones effort towards him/her, is it good? World is insensitive to lot of things. Lot of things become insensitive and un-important and at some point of time one feels what the heck, why should I care? Let it be. Nothing is gonna change. The struggle ends. The fire dies. The passion extinguishes. What is that?

Too many questions. Lot of them philosophical. Lot of them pracital, Lot of them useless. But its good, they are there. Many people do not get these questions at all because they never get exposed to lot of realities of life. Questions arise when one thinks, one thinks, when one is exposed to different scenarios. One gets exposed to different scenarios when one finds time to experience different thing. One finds time to understand and experience different things when one wants to get out of the monotonous race to live the life. So the ultimate point is to be different than the rat race that the world gets into and the rate race which at some point of time becomes so attractive to get oneself into, only to regret it later, by asking yourself why you got yourself into. And then continuing oneself in it because the mentality of there is escape from it. Many times exposure to different new things, can make one think on the right questions at the right stage of ones life. Many times thinking on the right questions, can make one understand different questions that many people face much later in their life and when the time had already flied away. Time is important. We have just a single lifetime. I am so curious to know what happens after death. I many times think what is the point in committing suicide if the ultimate end is death and when you really do not know what lies in front of you after death? If somebody says yes, the problems will be solved, tensions will be gone, suicide is good. But when the whole question of what lies afterwards is not known, making it happen is really courageous. I mostly believe suicide happens in rage of fit, without much thought. Its a sudden impulse, nobody plans a suicide. It just happens. If somebody plans and dies, then I think that person is the most courageous person on earth. But then the foremost question of if he was courageous he would fight out his way out of the mess comes to mind. So I believe suicides happen on impulse.

Exposure to lot of things can change things. It can make you unhappy, because now one knowns different scenarios and outcomes and possibilities. Many people do not want to understand sad part of living, they do not like to be a part of some sadness. All they want is happiness. Good for them. What happens to them when at some point of time they are faced with some threatening moments. God knows. Exposure can change the way one thinks. But again its a chicken and egg problem. One gets exposure only if one wants to think on the right questions.

This is complicated. Its a totally mind game.


-Mrunal